today my sister in law called me asking me to check on her 12 year old daughter !! It's my day off ! So I went to her house and tried to make sure that she is Ok !! I sat with her for almost 3 hours until her mom came back from work !!
mmmm when I had a moment with my self I remembered my best friend from school !! Maha !! she got married when she was 18 !! yaa I know !! but now she has a 12 year old boy !! actually he is going to be 13 this year !! any way !! I realized that If I did get married at the age of 18 I would've have a girl or a boy in that age !! I know it sounds stupid !! married at 18 !! No Way !! but I did always want to have kids when I am Young !! mmmm Younger !!! now !! when I see how annoying kids can be !! they always complain about everything !! never satisfied no matter what u do !! and the WORST thing is the parents !!! they never see their kid's mistakes !!!! and always blame other parents !! that they don't know how to raise/deal with their kids !!!! it makes me wonder !!! Am I going to be like this !!!!!! always think that my kids r the best !! OMG !!! what if I couldn't raise them well !!!
I've always loved kids ! and want to have one of my own !!! but I don't know !! I am getting used to be alone !! quite home !! not attached !! besides !! in this age !! I don't feel that I accomplished anything I want, not yet !! No one understands me !! they just say !! have a child and then figure things out !! as if kids simplify life !
yaa this is going to be our 3rd year as a married couple !! but I think I am still not ready for this !! Hoping that one day I will !!!
mmmm when I had a moment with my self I remembered my best friend from school !! Maha !! she got married when she was 18 !! yaa I know !! but now she has a 12 year old boy !! actually he is going to be 13 this year !! any way !! I realized that If I did get married at the age of 18 I would've have a girl or a boy in that age !! I know it sounds stupid !! married at 18 !! No Way !! but I did always want to have kids when I am Young !! mmmm Younger !!! now !! when I see how annoying kids can be !! they always complain about everything !! never satisfied no matter what u do !! and the WORST thing is the parents !!! they never see their kid's mistakes !!!! and always blame other parents !! that they don't know how to raise/deal with their kids !!!! it makes me wonder !!! Am I going to be like this !!!!!! always think that my kids r the best !! OMG !!! what if I couldn't raise them well !!!
I've always loved kids ! and want to have one of my own !!! but I don't know !! I am getting used to be alone !! quite home !! not attached !! besides !! in this age !! I don't feel that I accomplished anything I want, not yet !! No one understands me !! they just say !! have a child and then figure things out !! as if kids simplify life !
yaa this is going to be our 3rd year as a married couple !! but I think I am still not ready for this !! Hoping that one day I will !!!



